misunderstood mentality

I direct distance incessantly. It's just rescue for myself. Usually I feel with it good. However sometimes in our way bad and weird. I hope that it's concern only this place. Somewhere probably I'll spread my wings without boundaries. Anyway I can't wait this time. After what I see and my experiences I don't have desire for more. Everything here discourage me, I doing good look to bad game. I won't tell anybody about it. I can't afford for complete sincerity and clearness. All I to ache for it's escape and start over again. It's all.

Holidays has started and I studying of one's own accord. I have at least proof that I care. I'm happy for this motivation. I know that it'll be useful in the future. Most important that I get over with the first step. Now over the hump. It's also step to a dream come true. In july work at nice city with nice company, so another step to purpose. For the time being, everything works with plans! 

 I realized that I don't practise sport for month already. I'm not glad for it. On monday it's necessary to get some form serve to camp. I'll leave for week. Ten days karate camp, so three trainings for day and good fun. I won't rest, but nevermind. It's about for great memories. Unfortunately I have concerns to this. Always was amazing, but since the last time much things has changed. However I'm towards positive thoughts and I believe that will be great. Then I'll leave ath the lake with my bro and his chick :D After return work and in august GERMANY!!! I hope that I'll meet new great people there :)